Enemy within

You shroud my thoughts in such darkness
And fill that void with such emptiness,
I lose my way wandering in this nothingness.
My Enemy within - you Lethargy, o you Unwillingness,
Leave me alone, Let me my thoughts harness.

Delayed

My D is delayed. Swamped at the moment :(

Childhood

To crawl out from bed in my dad's cosy arms
And be brushed and rushed to school each day
To brawl with my siblings, and play in the barn
And go riding my trike every Sunday.

To snuggle up each night next to my Mom,
As she reads me tales of fairies beyond
To feel her cuddle me, keep me warm
And hear her lullabies, her love abound.



To know what's so special about being a teen
To know about years eleven to thirteen
To feel that crush my sis talks about
To be able to take a friend out.

To eagerly wait for that day with my Dad
When we'd go to have fun fishing together,
To beat him at tennis as a grown up lad
And cheer him on when he plays another.

How I wish I were now in my little den
Counting to live up to a Ninety Two
How I wish I could just pretend,
That this dreaded day never happened too.

Belief

I'll hold to my roots like that blade of grass as the winds of despair rush past me
I'll free my mind of "Me, Myself", I'll keep my ego small - as small as it can be.
I'll look boldly in the face of trouble and question its very existence
I'll be strong, I'll sail on, I'll sail on in the waves of turbulence.
I'll extend my thoughts to reach the far horizons, I'll ignite that zeal in me
I believe in my heart, I believe in my soul, I believe, I believe in me.